I don’t enjoy Xmas. I really don’t. It saddens me because it was such an important time of year for me years ago. During my single days, pre-children, when there were only 3 people in the world I had to think about for gifts. And nothing else to do but decorate a tiny apartment and only one place to go […]
i have to remind myself to breathe. i’m getting that worked up feeling where i’m feeling out of control with stress. after 3 years of having our house in chaos because of the big rm being out of commission and crap piled up in various areas of our house and shed and inaccessible for the most part…we are finally seeing […]
i need to get these fliers out about “move it, dig it, do it”, and usually i ask the moms on the local moms groups to help me, and they usually come through like gang busters. but i’ve not had a single mom pick any up yet, or even say they would. 🙁 and normally i would say, ok, no […]
we have only 1 credit card…which i’m quite proud of (we paid off the others when we remortgaged our home and took cash out to pay off a bunch of stuff). and we rarely use it. recently we’ve had to use it, unfortunately, but we are paying it off as soon as adam gets some more money in from jobs […]
not that we have a set routine, really…but i have had things coming up lately that have been pretty important and they have made me feel like i’m running around like a madwoman at times to accomplish them. honestly, its only here and there, but its really make me detest changes to my usual week. like next week i have […]
this is a stressful week. babyfest is day after tomorrow and i have a ton of things to do still…and stressed over that already…then what did i go and do? i scheduled my son’s appt to have his teeth worked on today. what was i thinking? of course it didn’t go well…its a bad week all around. he wouldn’t even […]
i have no idea how to do this. really, i don’t. i can’t, or i won’t or something, i don’t know…i just seem to be incapable of it. sigh and right now i’m really desiring to figure it out. i always have tons of projects i’m working on but right now i actually am unhappy with how much i’m involved […]
god i hate it when life happens like this. i get stuck in this cycle of worry and stress and feel the world is spinning. i know we’ll make it through this, and probably everything will be fine eventually…but in the meantime i’m so friggin scared and stressed and it SUCKS! my baby boy has cavities. not a surprise…he fights […]
here’s the rest of our 2008 xmas story…copied/pasted from an IM conversation i had today with my friend beckie…i’m sunflowermom30…i didn’t feel like typing it all again, LOL!!…._______________________________________________[22:15] sunflowermom30: hey, well, ummmm…our ceiling fell down in the big room yesterday, LOL![22:15] beckie_s: OH NO!![22:15] beckie_s: from the rain??[22:15] sunflowermom30: i’ll match your stress and raise you, LOL!!![22:15] sunflowermom30: no, we […]
and had a good time! i just hate all the stress surrounding this holiday. all the money stress leading up to it and all the stress over getting gifts and for me, this year, all the stress of finishing planned homemade gifts! this always happens…i always think things are going to take less time then they actually take. sigh from […]
i had a whole lot of ANGER recently over tyren’s xmas gift…long story, but i’ll try to shorten it. (key word, “try”) i ordered a space station toy for tyr at elgo bay on monday the 15th. i put in the notes of the order that i needed this in time for xmas. (1st time i told them) didn’t create […]
i’ve been working on practicing patience lately. its been just a tiny step so far, but i’m pretty proud of myself and felt i wanted to write about it. i’m not a patient person…never really have been…although i used to be a LOT more patient in regards to other people’s children. teaching, i had an immense amount of patience in […]
ok, things could be worse. i KNOW that people have it worse out there…but i have found that i tend to feel better about bad situations once i vent about them…so here goes… sighDEEP BREATH ok so i mentioned before how adam got a 10% pay cut, right? well, now here’s the thing…its kinda confusing, so bear with me here… […]
i have so much that needs to be done (always), and so of course i’m procrastinating and blogging instead. i really need a maid. 🙂 my kids are singing “happy birthday to you” right now because i just said that it was my friend beckie‘s birthday. and now they are arguing over how to sing it cuz tyr decided to […]
adam just found out today he’s getting a 10% pay cut starting with the next check (next payday is this friday). well everyone at his work is. its the boss’s way of not having to lay anyone off. which is totally fair, i get that. times are tough, and the biz isn’t doing well, so that’s what has to happen. […]
i’m back to that kind of stress where i feel the walls closing in around me. after i write this i’m going to gather my kids and run some errands and get outside and breathe some fresh air and try to forget for a little bit. what’s stressing me? money. always money. especially right now. we have this blasted “big […]
i don’t get horrid periods…but i’m crampy today and not feeling up to doing much. not to mention, tyren woke up last night for some reason (NO idea why! he’s not sick or anything) and stayed awake talking to me and kicking me for what seemed like 2 hours! not sure what time it started but in the middle i […]
we’ve all been sick this week which made for a real fun week. not! i pretty much decided halfway through the week that we might as well scrub this week as far as homeschooling. got nearly nothing done. between us all being sick (myself included, and i got it last so i was really feeling nasty for much of the […]
adam has had one thing after another lately that has kept him away from us…free-lance shoots, social things and family obligations. it just has really felt lately like we’ve not seen much of him. now i will preface all this with the fact that i KNOW that he’s doing good things…he’s a really GREAT GUY doing GOOD THINGS, and he’s […]
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